How He Loves Us

It really amazes me what God can do in your life if you just let Him. I've spent so much time running and trying to do things myself because I'm stubborn that I've never really had the chance to enjoy the life God can provide for me. I've spent too much time worrying and freaking out when I could have just let it all go and TRUST that God has it under control. I've been doing a lot of praying recently about life in general and it's just so amazing what He has done.

All of a sudden, my knee/ankle problem has me dropping my dance classes... I'm in the middle of possibly switching my major around a little... I want to stay part time for a time while I possibly go to massage therapy school and get a part-time job... I won't be living in on-campus housing in Chicago for the first time next fall... maybe even this summer... EVERYTHING is changing in my life. And the strange part is that I'm not anxious about it at all. I'm really trusting that God knows what's best for me better than I do. I've also been praying for God to open the doors that need to be opened in my life and close the ones that need to be closed. It's as simple as that. I don't need to worry about a thing. It's sort of ridiculous how easy it is when you finally get it. HAHA.

In regards to my relationship fast, it's a little harder, but I'm still praying all the time that He knows what he's doing. I'm constantly praying for clarity and understanding in my life because so many things are so confusing right now. I'm trying to just be friends with guys and it's working pretty well so far, but I can't help who I'm attracted to and God knows that. What I can help is what I do about it. Luckily, I've been journaling and taking walks with God a lot lately to clear my head about this entire thing and He hears me. My heart and my body really want things to be different than they are right now (referring to the unnamed 'person' I mentioned in my last post), but God has other plans and that's OK. I like that God's timing isn't necessarily what I want, but it's what I need. It's taken me 24 years to FINALLY understand that!