All Things Must Come To An End...

So much has happened and changed in my life in such a short period of time. I came home to Michigan thinking that it would be like any other time and that I would soon be ready to go back to Chicago. And to be honest, it started that way… but then I met Kyle. I went out with a group of friends and he was there… nothing has really been the same since.

For the past few weeks I’ve been battling what to do about my relationship fast. Kyle said that he would wait for me no matter what and for that I’m very grateful…but I’ve come to a different sort of conclusion to this story. Even though this whole thing started in January, I’ve really been doing it since the middle of November. I just wanted to make the date easier to remember and chose January 1st as that day. If we look at it from this perspective, I’ve been doing this for 8 months. And even though I’m nowhere near being perfect, I feel that I’ve come a long way. And since I won’t ever actually be perfect, I’ve decided that I’m okay with 8 months. I am done with my fast.

I don’t want you to think that I haven’t thought about this, because I most certainly have. It has been at the forefront of my mind for weeks. I also don’t want any of you to think that this means I’m giving up on any of the things I was doing during this fast, because I think those things are what I will constantly be figuring out for the rest of my life. I will still be working on my life and figuring out what a healthy relationship looks like, but I will be working on it with another person.

Kyle and I are officially in a relationship. Since I will be in Chicago for most of the next year, I feel that it will give us the space that we need to still figure things out for ourselves individually and give me that personal space to still really figure out what I want out of life… we will just be able to be there for each other while it’s all happening. So, it’s still a sort of unorthodox relationship where he is basically courting me while I’m in another state… I never do anything the easy way! haha

I was really trying to fight this from the start because I wanted to follow through on this fast, but then I realized that if the date was the only thing keeping me from doing anything, then there wasn’t really a point! I just kept focusing on January 1st, and I didn’t have any good reason other than that to walk away from Kyle. I’m ridiculously happy at this particular moment in my life and I don’t think that God would give me that just to dangle it in my face. I've really never been so certain about something in my life and it's very strange! If you know me, you know that making decisions aren't my forte. :o)

I really appreciate all of the support my friends have given me during this fast and I really hope that you all will continue to be there for me. Thank you all for being there. I love you guys.

Sincerely,
Kristin